SOMETIMES I WISH I HADN’T SEARCHED. I WISH I HADN’T FOUND YOU. MAYBE IT JUST WASN’T SUPPOSED TO BE. MAYBE KARMA HAD ITS REASONS. MAYBE IT WAS TO PROTECT ME FROM ALL THE PAIN I’M GOING THROUGH NOW. HOW CAN I FORGET, THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU. HOW YOU LOOKED INTO MY EYES. HOW COULD I EVER FORGET YOUR DEEP BROWN EYES AND THE TOUCH OF YOUR HANDS. OUR FIRST KISS IN A CROWDED LOUD ROOM, BUT FOR THAT MOMENT THERE WAS ONLY YOU AND ME. FOR DAYS I WAS THINKING ABOUT YOU. WONDERING, IF I’D FIND YOU. BELIEVING THAT IF I DID, THIS COULD BECOME SOMETHING MAGICAL. AND THERE WE ARE, ON OUR FIRST DATE. MY HEART BEATING SO FAST AND LOUD THAT YOU COULD SEE IT MOVING. I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE WAY YOU TALKED, ABOUT YOUR FAMILY, ABOUT YOUR LIFE, ABOUT EVERYTHING. YOU AND ME, NAKED, SHARING THIS MOMENT. A MISUNDERSTANDING. YOU LEAVE. I’M IN SHOCK, UNABLE TO MOVE OR SPEAK AND WATCH YOU LEAVE. BUT HERE WE ARE AGAIN, BECAUSE THIS WAS JUST THE BEGINNING. MY FRIENDS SAY, THERE’S LOVE IN YOUR EYES WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME. I CAN SEE IT, I CAN FEEL IT. OUR FIRST I LOVE YOU AND OUR FIRST FIGHT. TWO PEOPLE FULL OF LOVE AND TEMPERAMENT. MAD, IN THE MIDDLE OF A CROWDED STREET, I SHOUT AT YOU, YOU TURN AROUND AND LEAVE. I WATCH YOU WALK AWAY, SCREAMING. WE FIND EACH OTHER, I CAN SMELL THE AMOUNT OF LIQUOR IN YOUR BREATH. I WANT TO RUN. I WANT TO HIDE MY TEARS. YOU GRAB MY HAND. YOU SAY I HAVE NO REASON TO WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING, THAT ALL YOU WANT IS STANDING JUST IN FRONT OF YOU. YOU TELL ME YOU LOVE ME. I STAY SILENT. HEARTBREAK. LIES. DISAPPOINTMENT. ALL THAT WAS LEFT. I LOVE THE WAY YOU TALKED ABOUT YOUR FAMILY, BUT NOW IT’S THE REASON WE’RE BREAKING. CAN I TRUST YOU AGAIN? DO YOU REALLY LOVE ME? WHAT ABOUT HER? WHAT ABOUT YOUR FAMILY? DO WE HAVE A FUTURE? My friends say you're no good, you're not to trustI STAY. I BELIEVE, I HOPE, I PRAY. I TRY TO REBUILD TRUST. THINGS ARE GOING GOOD BUT IM LEAVING. WHAT WILL THE DISTANCE DO? OUR LOVE GROWS, MY FIRST SPOKEN I LOVE YOU. I COME BACK, TO ME THINGS ARE DIFFERENT. I GIVE YOU LOVE AND EVERYTHING YOU NEED. I’M AFRAID YOU LIE, THAT YOU KEEP SECRETS. YOUR FAMILY AND YOUR FRIENDS HAVE LEFT NO ROOM FOR ME. YOU DON’T SEEM TO CARE ANYMORE, YOU KEEP OTHER DOORS OPEN. I’M SCARED, MY TRUST IS BROKEN. I NEED YOU BY MY SIDE, I NEED YOU TO HEAL THOSE WOUNDS. MY HEART IS BREAKING. This is the proof I've been waiting for. The prrof that makes it easier for me to let you go. A picture, you and her in love, just minutes after you told me you love me. YOU BLAME ME. CALL ME NAMES FOR FINDING OUT ABOUT YOUR DOUBLE LIFE. NO APOLOGY, AN EXPLANATION FULL OF LIES. A sick game I cannot longer be a part of. Im tired, Im broken. I Know my worth so I let go.
 I SEARCHED FOR YOU, I BELIEVED IN YOU, I TRUSTED YOU, I FORGAVE YOU, I WAS THERE FOR YOU AND I LOVE YOU. But you dont seem to love me, so I start loving myself and let you go for myself.